Monday, 18 February 2019

Back To School.....

Hello everyone! (waving)
I have quite a bit to share with you all today. Some glad, other things sad. I'll start with the sorrow. On February 16th 2016 my Mother ended up in a coma and on the 18th we had to say goodbye to her. I loathe thinking of it for the many ways it hurts my heart. Today is February 18th and in my head, her death and those choices I made....are haunting. No way am I going to spend this day crying and complaining though. That wouldn't be beneficial to anyone, especially myself. What I will do, is focus on, remember and share all the good of the woman (our Mother) we where gathered at the hospital for. My Mother was 100 million percent her own person, she owned her beliefs and the beauty she saw in others. She could hold an interesting and vicorous conversation with anyone. My Sis and I truly gained the gift of gab, from her. I miss her laugh and her "don't you tell me!" way. How many of us can truly say we own everything about ourselves?. I know I sure can't. Many times I act differently around others, like more reserved or less opinionated. Our Mother never ever did that! She was always in the only skin she ever wore and she was rightfully proud of it. She would weild her words in a woeful way, like we all have, yet could and would apologize when wrong. I do think my Sis and I also have that in us. Oh how I do admire so many things about her!. I miss when we went to lunch with her oldest Sister, out bowling, two hour long telephone chats. Most of all I miss when all of us were together. My eyes are leaking large now so I should move things along.

Today is also Family Day in my home and native land and I am very much looking forward to making a Mexican feast later!. We will be having homemade bacon wrapped jalapeƱo popper bread, tacos hard and soft along with some quesadas. Afterwards maybe a game of pool or darts with some of my loved ones!. However, in the back of my mind grounds, gloom looms as I think about the future. Tomorrow I start back to school after never going further than grade 8, more than thirty- five years ago. My Mother would be oh so proud!. I hope to do better than I did in my previous experience with the education system. I doubt that I will encounter the things that stopped me before but that isn't easing me any. I'm worried that I won't do well and will give up, as I have in the past. One thing I do know is, I want to graduate. That never was a goal I had in younger years. Life was my bull and I was going to ride it instead of reading about it!. Guess who need up riding who?, lol. I'm giving myself stern pep talks lately and I pray that I will be courageous enough to continue on if I fail.

Before I leave you all to this day, I would like to take a few minutes to tell you about a man, a neighbor, a very good role model in life. A man who I saw everyday of my childhood and not once did I witness him sad or really mad. For respect towards him and his family I won't name him. This man that I so looked up to, who to me was always ten feet tall, passed away last week after a long, giving, loving life. He was a super soul!. Family, community and always offering his assistance were at the core of his being. He was an educated man but humble about himself. Humour was always handed out by him and all of us Stop 26 kids know what I'm talking about. One of my favorite memories is when I would be invited to go out with his youngest Daughter, one of my best friends, to to the store or to visit her Meme or Grandmother. You see, my neighbors had this old red, huge station wagon that had seen better days but served the family swell for many years. They were a huge tree of nine and that old wagon sure held it's worth with the kids it transported. Anyway, back in the 70's safety standards weren't what they are today. This vehicle had not one but two huge holes in the floor behind both the drivers and passenger seats. Mr Neighbour simply placed loose cardboard over the holes and told us that had we tried to remove it to see the ground under the traveling car, we would most certainly be sucked into the vortex of air from the holes. We believed him and never dared to test his knowledge. Imagine that!, kids being afraid of things Adults say..lol. I so longed to be at his viewing yesterday or his upcoming funeral, later today. However I have been battling lung sickness of a serious kind, since the first week of December and don't want to make any others ill. I've managed to contaminate my family and a couple friends, I've done enough damage. On that evilness, I shall bid you all a very dandy day!. As always, thanks for reading what's in the mind grounds and I hope you are lucky enough to spend time with your families today.








Sunday, 20 January 2019

The Greatest Gifts....

Hello again everyone!. Over a year since I last wrote here, how can that be?. Endless reasons why it happened but I'm just going to focus on the here and now. That has been something I have always struggled with but now I'm forced to do it daily, so for to save my sanity. Much has changed since I last graced this space. Where shall I begin?. I'll start with the title as that seems fitting. The greatest gifts, to me, are family, friends and The Big Guy's love. Those three things have kept me going, even though I frequently wanted to give up. I am able to once again blog because of the kindness and generosity of a very good friend. I won't name her because I haven't asked her permission. I will say that she has been a huge part of healing for me in the last year of my life. She is one of my biggest supporters and always speaks her mind and doesn't glaze anything, ever. Without speaking of the sourness that brought me to this point in my journey, I will let you all know that I am in my own place for the first time in my forty eight years of life. My Husband and I are living a part and I struggle with that but I'm grateful to have been given the opportunity and gifts handed to me. I'm always second guessing myself and never understand why others have the belief in me that I can't seem to see in my own self. However, I'm here and still trying so that is what matters, right?. To each and every one of you that have shown me kindness, I thank you!. Today has been a good day, actually, so have the last few and I am grateful for it!

Back to my family and friends.
I often wonder why no one ever gave up on me and why I refuse to give up on others, even when it sucks every ounce of my strength and sunshine. Do any of us realize the power we have in helping each other?. I think not. Otherwise, we would be doing more for others and less for ourselves. 2018 was a year of firsts for me. My first apartment, my first time doing things for myself and my first time being completely alone at Christmas!. Guess what?, I lived through it all!. I certainly didn't think I would. I have to tell you that crying alone when no one can hear you is way more dismal than doing it with others in the house. I'm glad I lived it though. Good, bad and even uncomfy experiences should not only be acknowledged but given their weight in worth. I understand that the three things I have given credit to, pave my way. Christmas alone was not enjoyable but necessary so others didn't get sick. I loathed being away from our Sons, my Sister and her family. Waaah was me but it most certainly wasn't the worst in life. Right now, where I live, snow and below temps surround us. I am not a fan. However, I am not homeless, hungry or cold. As far as I feel, those are some of the worst things in life that anyone can experience.

On that, I'll leave these lines and hope to have many more in the future. As always, thanks for reading what's been in my mind grounds and I hope you are all well and wonderful in this day.




Thursday, 4 January 2018

From 1970 To 2018.....

Well there goes another speedy six months.
Salutations and Happy 2018 to you all!. I'll start at the beginning which is at the end of where I left off. When last I laid lines here, we were enjoying a superb Summer. Much to my disliking, we are now in the snowy, stranglehold cold of Winter....ICK!. I'm going to swallow my sours though because it is much worse, elsewhere in the world.

In the months leading up to this post we were quite busy. Mostly visiting folks, swimming and soaking up every last ounce of Summer.
September was right there waiting for us to get back in our regular routine though. Our youngest is now in grade ten and has surpassed his Brother in height and sassiness.
He, my Stepfather and I spent Christmas with my Sister and her family this year, out of town. My Hubby was having a rough time and just wanted to stay home, alone. Against my wishes, he did.
I'm pleased to let you know that he is doing much better and I'm thankful for our love over each other. Earlier in December my Husband had an issue with his heart. Its been going on for years
but never gets less scary when it happens. Again, I'm good and grateful he is still here, right by my side. I have gained another year in age as of November, which brings me to this blog title. 1970 is the year I was gifted life and its been a journey that I love sharing with others. I recall long boring hours looking out my classroom window daydreaming of being "older". Any age older than the one I was at.....ten.
Before I blinked there was sixteen, then 21, 34 and now 47.Careful what you wish for!. I just can't wrap my mind grounds around how fast it all flew by. So with just four days into a brand new year here I sit in decent health, no wealth yet humble and happy. Days like today are a blessing simply because I have all the folks I love in life, also alive and surviving, just like me....did you hear my roar in your head there?. I sure felt it, while I typed.

In October of 2017 we experienced something that we never have before. Being without a car. The motor seized in our driveway. It sure stumped our mechanic. he said it usually happens while driving. We continue to look for a used vehicle but so far, no luck. People have said to us "how can you live without a car?".
It makes me giggle because we live right near bus stops, have a bicycle and also our legs. Though we do miss having a car, it surely isn't a necessity. I do hope and pray that we get one before Summer's start though. Currently most of my prayers have been for two fine friends. One is battling huge health heaps and the other is starting her life over. Both bring about instant gratitude for my piddly problems. The older I get the more I realize how precious time really is and not one of us knows how long we will be gifted it. Speaking of gifts, that reminds me of my birthday.
I had a sleep over at my friends house and had a kahton of fun!. She spoils me so sweetly on my big day, every year. This one included a bbq'd steak dinner done in the pouring rain by her Husband and also a personal size birthday cake!. There were many other gifts but the one I enjoyed the most was all of our loud laughter.

Well folks, I'm going to get comfy in our nest now. Hubby and I are going to watch a movie. I hope you are all doing well and that 2018 is your best year yet.
Thanks for reading what's in the mind grounds. I always appreciate it!









Saturday, 5 August 2017

I'm Back.....

Hello everyone!
I sure have missed emptying my Mind Grounds around here. Honestly, I don't know
where to begin. Life hasn't been slow, that's for sure!. I'll get the sadness out of my system first.
On February 18th 2016, my Mother passed away suddenly. While I'm no stranger
to losing loved ones, this was a shock to us all. She fell ill two mornings before she left. Her death also brought about a lot of suppressed feelings from some family members, ones I'm still struggling with.
The older I get the more I think about the relationships we make effort for.
Why is it so hard to walk away or wash our hands of those who we can't sail smoothly with?, and why is it always smooth sailing with others?. There must be a reason and I think It's all relative.
It's nearly two and a half years since my last post. Hopefully, I will get back into the wielding of words without to many woes.

Onto awesomeness!. Since our oldest Son has moved out and graduated College, our youngest has spent a lot of time with friends and engaging in athletics.
We have been here, there and everywhere. Always enjoying the time we share, except when egos are entwined. I love that we can roll with the tides of teens and still want to share moments with them.Constantly I am taken back to my childhood in daily thoughts and actions. Days of way back when, Family and friends filled our leisure hours. Life didn't seem so scheduled and stressed. However, most of those memories were between six and sixteen, haha!

As I type, we are in the beginning of August. Yesterday marked twelve years since my Father died.
Also it was my Cousin's 40th birthday. Summer is speeding by, far to fast for my fancy!. Our Son's are now 21 and 15 year old. I can't believe Billy and I are the Parents of a College graduate. I'm so proud of what he has accomplished so far. Last night I spent the night at my Dear friend's house, Darlene. Her and her Husband Denis have saved my sanity more times than I can count in the last 25 year. We played Euchre, laughed, sang and enjoyed every second we shared. I'm loving this Summer as all the others before it. Honestly, I live for this time of year. I'd like to give gratitude to another friend of mine, Crawdad (Claudette), she is Darlene's Mother. Earlier this week she made it possible for us to get a laptop for our youngest Son, for school. It was weighing heavy on my mind and filled my with worry. I was able to see her today and express my appreciation. We are so lucky to have people in our lives that always care!. That is the reason why I am able to type an entry here today, yay!.Thank you Crawdad and Mr T!..hehe

Currently, we are anxious for our Summer supper. Vision corn, spareribs, field tomatoes and sweet yellow watermelon!. I just can't do justice in describing the delicious, complete sweet of the corn, I dream about it and wake with mouth watering, when not in season. Yes, it is the best we've ever had!
I would challenge any Farmer to compete with Elaine's Garden Market  and their perfect produce. A bit scattered in my say so's here but that's always how my gears go in the mind grounds, when I'm happy and in a well way. I'm thinking of three Lad's I love. Our Son Aidn's graduation with his two long time friends. They graduated from grade eight, last year. It was such a wonderful day!.I bawled like a newborn baby, from beginning to end. Of course I will add pictures, once I've said all I need to. No, you poor souls, I'm not done yet!...hehehe. The older I get the harder it gets to let certain moments go. Days doing not to much of anything except hanging around together, when everyone laughs and memories are made, absolute magic it is to me and I hope I retain them all in the life that remains in me. Goodness this feels good!, to release and share my thoughts again. If you are still reading, thank you.

I must say sayonara for now but I plan on keeping in touch. As always, thanks for reading what`s in my Mind Grounds and may this day be a decent one for you.







 






Saturday, 28 March 2015

Six Months Slipped By.....

Hello again everyone! (waving)
Yes indeed, six months has slipped by since my last say so's. Why did I let that happen?. Well, no sense in singing the same song, I'm here now and happy to be. Today has been a decent one so far, actually, the last few have been pretty darn dandy. Where do I start in telling you about what's taken place in our lives lately?. Hmmmm....how about hockey?. In September of last year, our youngest Son started another season of hockey. This was his third year and proved to be his best yet. Though The Greyhounds started and stayed sluggish through the regular season, boy did they finish up on a slick side of the stick, second place!...pretty schweet!. Our boys made it to the finals and we couldn't be prouder of their efforts!. Halloween was cold and snowy but for the first time ever I was at my Aunt and Uncle's to hand out candy. I missed trick or treating with the Cousins and their kids but I was stuck in the states and Aidn was serving up spooks with a friend at a haunted house. It was the first year he wasn't with us. My Hubby is the one I felt bad for though, he had to pick me up an hour away and was rewarded with the sight of me all "Whitchy 'n' Wild". Actually, as I recall it wasn't a woeful day or night and I was pretty pleased to be helping my Aunt and Uncle. Five days later fell my birthday and that didn't go as well. It wasn't a complete wash out though and some smiles were had so I can't complain. I did get to spend my 44th with many people I love and was spoiled beyond what I deserve, so that's what I'll keep front and center in the "Think Tank".

On to Christmas I guess, that held some very good memories!. Our oldest Son came home with my Sis and her crew and that alone made it marvelous for me. We all miss him so much that when we do get to visit with him, it's a terrific treat. For the last few years our Uncle holds a Christmas Adult get together and it's always a good time for our families. The food, friends, family, the fun!. I feel grateful to be surrounded by so many people I enjoy keeping company with. The one painful part of Christmas this year was not having our "Memeness" to share smiles with. She passed away five days after Jesus's Big Day 2013. You may remember reading that here. Anyway, it stung and I know it always will. It's great to laugh and remember, share and smile about the past we all share with loved ones. This Christmas was no exception. It looks like that brings me to New Year's Eve. What a wonderful one it was!. My Hubby Bub and I decided to let Aidn have a few friends sleep over, three of em. Also a few of our friends celebrated with us for a bit. We had what seemed like a field of food, took the boys skating and rang in the new year with smiles and laughter. It was a late night for the boys and I, if my memory serves their batteries gave out at around 3:30 am and mine had life until 5....hehe I still got some Night Owl left in me!. In my wordiness here it seems I've forgotten to mention that my Husband has been off work since November. I could wright a few blog entries about that boy!. However, that isn't going to happen. I will say that we took a trip through hell but are still "trying". It was hard the first few months but we had huge help from family and friends and The Big Guy along the way.

The next few months went by quite quickly and we are now in full swing Spring mode. Aidn's hockey banquet was a week ago today and it was wonderful to see all the Greyhounds in their jerseys joking around with each other. We had never attended in prior years so we didn't know what to expect. A full house is what we walked into. Some 400 people were there and I was happy we were able to sit together. I think our Son may have had the biggest show of support with eleven arses parked in pride at our table. In his first two years he played with a different league so it was nice to experience something new. What a great time we all had even though this league's practice pad was much further from our house. It didn't matter a darn bit because he made new friends and had a ton of fun. Also, I'd like to make mention of the cool as cubes coaching staff. Aidn has always had great coaches but this year was made special by extra outside efforts from the staff and parents of teammates. Before I forget, many thanks to my Cousins for making hockey happen for our little lad, this season.

That brings me almost up to speed here. I would like to mention the magnificent time we had on March Break. First, we went to Deer Camp with six other adults for two whole nights!. All adults and no kids made a fun time for all of us!. Now before you start thinking I'm a meanie not taking along the boys, I am not. After our old folks weekend we came home for two sleeps only to turn around and go back for three more with our Son and two of his friends. It felt fantastic to bring along other kids that didn't have any plans for March Break. Made even better by seeing them try new things for the first time. Did I say how much these boys like to eat?, well they sure do!. Luckily, I LOVE to cook and tend to others so we all enjoyed our time away. The nights were my most favourite time. Kids playing mini stick hockey or watching movies while Hubby Bub and I sat in front of the wood stove, chatting about the day and anticipating the next one. We also made our bed downstairs, not far from the wood stove.....super schweet sleeps!. None of us wanted to leave but we hope to bring them all back real soon. Well I gather I've forgotten to tell you about many other things that have taken place since I last laid lines here but hey!, it's Saturday night and I have two of Aidn's friends sleeping over, a movie for my Hubby and I, along with a pizza dip I have to make for the Lads. So for now that's about it. As always, thanks for reading what's in the Mind Grounds and may you be well in health and happiness!
















Saturday, 13 September 2014

Just When I Thought......

Hello again! (waving)
Though I know it has been many months since I last left say so's here, nearly six! and I really believed that I was done with the blog/writing bug. I guess there's still something left in me to say. Where do I start?. So much has happened since I last laid lines in this cyberspace. Our oldest Son has flown our chicken coop and left the nest we've made for him over the last eighteen years. Surely I could see the sadness headed straight at me, right?. I knew it would be troubling but I had not the first clue on just how hard the aftermath would be to handle. Just when I thought it would get easier not having to straighten out strife between our boys, life showed me it can always get worse.....ALWAYS! (I'll get to that in a bit). Liam's graduation was a great success on his part and he worked so hard to strive for grades we could all praise him over. He even earned a gold rope which is given to students who excel with more than an 80% average. Peacock proud and pleased are we!. Then there was the graduation party that we held for he and my Nephew who graduated from grade 8 and was the Valedictorian of his class. Dang, I should back up a bit. Right before Liam's ceremony was my Nephew's ceremony. My youngest Son, Aidn and I were invited to join my Mother and Step-Father at my Sister and Hubby Bub's house for a couple days. How happy I was to help celebrate his achievements. As always, there were many people staying at my Sister's house, her Husband's Mom and Dad were there and it was wonderful to spend time with them. We had not seen them since my Sister married their Son. A highlight for me was being able to sleep out on the front porch for not one but two nights!. Of course seeing my Nephew give his speech was also grand, sleeping outside is a favourite thing in life for me.

Okay, onto the part-eh!...hehe, a little Canadian humour. It was held on Sat June 28th and warm doesn't begin to describe the weather. I am NOT complaining. How I wish this Summer would have had more of those humid days. We invited around 50 people and I think that's about how many joined us in the celebration. It was wonderful, truly terrific!. I'd like to thank everyone again for being so generous with their time, money and travel expenses to be with us. Julie, I and all our children wouldn't have been able to do it without every one of you!. My Sis sure did pick a nice place to have the party, outside at a local park with a pool on the property. The food was fantastic and I'm glad we had enough ice to keep everything cool. It wasn't fine dinning but it sure was delicious!. Hot Dogs, hamburgers, assorted salads, loads of beverages and a kahton of cake!. One of the best things about that day was seeing so many people from my Hubby's side of the family. Aunts, Uncles and Cousins came together and surprised us completely. My Hubby Bub's Mother and two of his Sisters made the trip down from six and eleven hours away. I wish they could have stayed for a few days but could only be here for the one afternoon. I couldn't imagine making such a long trip with having so little time to enjoy it, grateful I am that they were here for us. After the party we had an after party at my Cousin's house. On the spur of the moment Marty and Shonna opened their home and perfectly pleasing pool to us. What a way to spend the remaining hours in that day!. I can't tell you how happy it makes me seeing all of our children playing and enjoying each others company. That's how we were raised and my blood pumper pounds proudly seeing the tradition continue on. The most comical moment had to be when we were all waiting for Julie to arrive. Every single one of the kids helped fill water balloons to wield at her upon her arrival. Such a shame it was to see her soaked again after just drying off from the last water balloon belting....hehehe, poking fun at my Sis never gets old!. Julie being the wonderful sport she is laughed and chased the little ones who were first in line to wet her. Another belly buster was when Cousin Colin shoved sticks in his older Brother Brandon's shoes while he swam in the pool, hahaha man I love my family! Thank you all for such wonderful memories they were some of my sweetest this Summer!

For the love of lines I'm not going to be able to tell you about everything so I'll shorten my say so's a wee bit. Since March we have had two graduations, two deaths in the family and one new life born just recently. There was a welcome home BBQ for one of my Aunt's that came from out West and several sunny sweet moments that still make me smile when swimming in the think tank. I'd be lying though if I said its been all sun and rainbows. It hasn't, not by a long shot!. Honestly, this past week was particularly problematic for me. No, those aren't the right words. Down right depressing are the fitting ones for my feelings. I won't go into details about it because it is in the past now and at this moment, I am only here, in the NOW!. I will say that several souls are why I can set my sights on sunnier skies today. Another thing I want to mention is how The Big Guy came through for me, by way of others. He always does, even when I'm feeling unworthy of anything. Thanks I owe you everything!. On to thanking the ones who helped me out of my me heaps. Julie, Shonna, Marty, Aunt Pam, Uncle Mike, Billy, Liam, Lisa, Darlene and Aidn. I'm ever grateful for everything you have done for us.
I haven't even typed about the three mini vacations we shared at our Aunt and Uncle's, one of my best friend's 50th birthday party, visits with many I love, Aidn and I's terrific time at Peche Island and how it's all flown by in what feels like a week. Maybe I'll get back to being more frequent here and tell you all about it soon. Until then, thanks for reading what's in the Mind Grounds and I hope you're in as good of a way as I am today!. Of course I'll add a few photos folks! :)









Monday, 31 March 2014

The Winds Of Change.....

Hello again everyone! (waving)
The winds of change have been chanting around me for some time now but I haven't tried to silence it's squall. Today is my Father's seventy-first birthday and the mind grounds are full of marvelous memories I made with him. Since his death over eight years ago, so much has changed. A few marriages and new faces have been added to our flock of families. Oh how happy the addition of little ones would have made my Dad, he loved being around kids. Though I still miss his mug daily and often long for his encouragement, love and support, life does go on and the pain isn't as present . Every time I share a memory of him with someone he is there. When any of us do something he loved or open our hearts to another, I can almost feel his pride. Today I am focusing on the fine even though I'm fearful of the future. In the next few months we will have to wish our oldest Son well as he graduates high school and moves north of where we are. I feel ill when I think of it to long so I won't type much about that. Our youngest will be twelve soon and my health is well so I have been looking for work. With the boys growing up and able to do much of what I use to for them I have been feeling a bit useless around here. I have been a stay at home Mom for most of the last eighteen years and I feel it's time for me to financially contribute to my family once again. I miss working and want to be doing something more than the things I do around here. There are a couple problems with my plan. I am forty-three and uneducated. Maybe that will be overlooked considering the employment avenue I want into only involves cleaning or doing dishes. We shall see.

In the last few weeks things have been pretty good around here. I really can't utter an awful word about anything. The best news I have to share is that my good friend Chrissy made it through a very serious surgery. A bit deflated I felt when a few folks said to be realistic and not get so full of hope. It didn't deter my faith one bit. This lady has more life and love of it in any ounce of a day than most folks I know have in a lifetime. The Big Guy is great and I will proudly state that whenever I feel the need to, like now!. I spent much of last week making perogies for many people and it was wonderful to give some away to friends that stopped in for a visit with gifts for me and loved ones. A dear friend from high school came by and we shared smiles, laughter and concern for each other over coffee. She generously gave me gifts from a trip to Cuba that she and her Husband recently went on. With that she also gave us some homemade wine they make. The following day my Cousin, another fine friend came by with more wine that her Father made. I felt so honored to be given this gift because he made it acting on thoughts of my dearly departed Daddy and the wine he and his Father use to make. Visiting with two people I love two days in a row was wonderful and I am still feeling the sweetness from it a few days later. Thank you ladies and Uncle Timmy!

Earlier this month my Mother-In-Law was down visiting her Sister who just lost her Husband. Cookie/Spun lives several hours away and does not drive but she dropped everything in her life to come and comfort her Sister. That says so much about the person she is and the love she has for others. I have personally witnessed it as well, most recently June of 2011. I had surgery and she came to help her Son and I in our daily lives with kids. I didn't get to see Aunt Jo after the funeral but she sure has been in my thoughts and prayers since then and I hope Cookie was able to comfort her. It makes me feel good to think about the love Sisters can have for each other. I bet you think I'm going somewhere with this, right?, well yes I am. Today I am having many thoughts of my own Sister. Some sunny others stormy, well maybe not stormy but one went well with the other, sorry. Anywords....for March Break this year Julie generously invited us to join her for a few days at Kalahari. To those of you who have never heard of this place let me describe it to you in a single sentence. "Jungle themed water wonderfulness in the hugest hotel I have ever seen", what a fantastic place for families and most of us had a terrific time. I won't name call or mention it further but for once it wasn't me being the wet blanket. There was one water ride called The Swahili Swirl and that was my favorite followed by The Zip Coaster, though my back is still tender to touch from that one. Sitting with my Sis in the hot tub, watching the kids surf on The Flow Rider, playing cards together, enjoying meals with each other were all of the finest things for me. Back to the title of this entry. After our trip ended my Sister had words with me that still have us in a stalemate state. We aren't arguing or being ugly to each other but we are in an uncomfortable place. Without going into detail I will say that it is me who needs to change. I owe so many at least that, making an effort to become a better person so that everyone I love will benefit from it. Although, I wish she would have just smacked me upside my head for forgetting my passport and wallet back at the hotel when we were halfway home. That would have been less scary than the future for me.

Yup, I'm leaving it in deep thoughts today folks. It will motivate me to make improvements in all my awfulness. Thanks for reading what's in the mind grounds and may you soon feel the sun on your face as I do today!