Cyberspace Sayonara......

That's what came to mind when titling this entry.
Why and what does it mean?, let me explain....
Last night as Hubby Bub and I were making one of our kids favorite meals,
Chicken Soo Gai, my better half  took over making the chicken with our
eldest Son helping him while I readied the rice and peanut gravy.
I left them to their tasks and came to the computer room to read some
posts at Facebook and another of my favorite sites.
I had a few minutes to spare and always enjoy reading when I get an
opportunity to.
I first saw the sad news while at Facebook, a friends status said that
a fellow poster had passed away.
People die everyday and considering what I knew of this man I really
shouldn't have been surprised but I was indeed and am still.

Maybe I should tell you a bit on what I knew about him first before
I get a lost in feeling flows here..
I first read from this Fella back in 2005 and after reading only a few
posts I wanted to slug his mug!
He was attacking another poster by typing insults to them and it miffed
me muchly.
How could anyone be so cold, mean and hate filled?
There were times where he could be calmer, kind and comical but always
went back to fire fingered foolishness.
As I began to read more and more at this particular site I realized how
entertaining some of his say so's were and there was music talk everywhere
there so I became a member in January 2006.
Since then, there is no other site I read at more and have shared some of the best
belly shakes I've ever had with folks I've never met in person.
Hubby Bub and I even traveled to Indiana to be a part of the first music festival
the site ever had and it was a blast.
The best part for me was meeting some of the folks I had conversations
with over the years.

Why did I feel the need to blog about this one person that I have never met?
Well I gather it's because he has now passed and I'm feeling sad for the loved
ones in his life that he's left behind.
He never cared for me and many a war with words did we exchange.
I could often be found trying to be polite or kind to him even though he
hurled insults my way.
I always had a soft spot for him because he seemed so "lost", something I
have felt many times in my own life and could relate to his anger and humor.

I've spent a good part of this beautiful day reading threads about how
others feel on his passing.
Lots of sympathy and reminiscing  is going on over him in Cyberspace.
I don't often like to make light of peoples faults yet I've done so here only
because I want to keep close in mind the way all of us can be cruel and
hurtful at times yet always hold the power to turn it around with the good
found in each of us.
I'm sad knowing he was so young, under 50 and fought his demons until
the day he died, sad to know his grown children and young Son must go
on without him, sad for the lady he loved and sad because no more will I
read say so's from his fiery filled soul.
So long Dean, this is my Cyberspace Sayonara to you, Sir!

I'll include two songs from his favorite musician, these are my favorites
from The Boss, Dean'o couldn't stand Secret Garden. :)
I always did get the last word with him!

Thanks for reading what's on my mind and I hope that this day finds you
in a well and wonderful way. 

Oh What A Night!.....

That's what will forever come to mind when reminiscing about this
past Saturday evening.
It seemed like it would never get here, I was ever so excited to be going out
with friends and family.
So glad things went smoothly and we got there without being to late.
A very special thank you to my superb Sister for making the time in her busy
schedule to take the trip down and be with us, I love you for all the selfless things
you do, just like this one.

We all gathered at our eldest Cousins house, you know who you are hehehe.
Everyone brought an appetizer and we enjoyed some good eats.
I could have stayed and chatted with all the ladies for hours but there was
dancing to be done and we made our way to the night club.
I don't think there was a single minute in our drive that we weren't laughing
and from what I was told the same sounds were had in the other van full of
ladies, wonderful indeed.
A favorite moment of the night happened when we were crossing
the border at the Ambassador Bridge, one of my comical Cousins was feeling
overly friendly and made it known to the customs officer.
Never have I seen anyone so playful and pleasant going over the border.
She had all of us in the van cracking up and before we even made it to the
club my stomach was sore from all the shakes of laughter.
At the duty free shop a few in our gaggle of girls ventured in and sampled
some new lip pumping product, believe the name of it was "Mother Pucker"
I am laughing out loudly now as I type while the memory of those fine moments fly
through my mind grounds.
Did I mention that we got mixed up in our directions more than once?
Damn you GPS Yoda..... :)


Never had I been to this place before and I was pleased that we found a table
and enough room on the dance floor for all of us.
I think I've stated in an earlier entry that I'm not real good on my feet and I was
true to form on Saturday night.
All the ladies that went were not only decent dancers but confidence came from
their every shake and shimmy, me?, not so much.
I did do my best though when the song Moves Like Jagger came on, that one
owns my backside!
Words can't describe just how much fun I had and it had nothing to do
with music, for once.
I could have spent days seeing and hearing all the lovely ladies laughter,
I don't know about any of you reading here but for me, watching people who
are pleased is precious.

The night club was closing around two in the morning and after the last song
we all headed on home.
I think some of us could have danced all night and I was envious of their energy.
Hopefully in the near future we will all find a way to get together again.
One of the ladies is having a jewelry party in June that I hope to attend,
must make a note of that.
It was wonderful to spend a night with so many fabulous females and I
really enjoyed meeting some new friendly faces.
My Cousin keeps cool company and I'm grateful that I was included in the celebration.
It's times like Saturday night that renew my love for life and the fabulous folks
I have in mine.
Take a bow ladies because you all made me feel like I was twenty again!

Well it's Monday and that means I must make even more of an effort to
make it a marvelous one.
If you're asking why that is?, then Monday's don't do the same to you
as they do to me.
I'll add a couple pictures and a song that will etch the excellence of that
night in my mind forever.
Don't know why but one of us didn't make it into the second picture, I blame Kevin....hehe
Thanks for reading what's trickling around the think tank today and I hope
happiness and well health are yours.

For The Love Of Laughter......

For the love of laughter my belly shakes so.
That's just one of several silly lines sliding around my mind grounds today.
I think it may have something to do with the cold medicine I'm taking.
No worries though as this could make for some funny reading.

Today marks my Mother's 62nd birthday and I am hoping to bring her some
treats from Red Lobster later. At the moment however, I find myself
thinking about how many of those years I only saw her once or twice through
a 365 day span.
Now that I'm grown it's all changed and I can spend time with her when I like.
You see, my Sister and I were raised by our Father and his Mother (Meme)
and for reasons I didn't understand then, we only saw our Mom a couple
times a year.
Sometimes that lack of living together comes into play with our adult
relationship now.
I haven't lived with my Mother since I was about three years old but my Sis
lived with her for a time when she was a teen.
Some of you reading this may find these lines to be sad, not so, we had a full and
fun childhood that was filled with lots of love and I'm glad we were raised the
way we were.
It must have been terribly painful for her watching her children grow up with
someone else guiding them.
I'm happy to have her and my Stepfather in our lives and I'm grateful for the time
they spend with our children, it's so different from what my Sister and I knew.
They love their Grandchildren and it pleases my blood pumper to see them being
steady influences in their young lives.

I last typed about looking forward to a concert I was going to, remember?
Well it was a wonderful night out and after the show we came back here
and I made kettle popcorn which my company loved.
I've been a big Beatles fan since I was a teen and it was awesome to sing along
to all the songs I love, my favorites for the night were Across The Universe and
The Two Of Us.
I was full of life and had a hard time going to sleep that night, think my head finally
hit the pillow around 2am.
Glad I got out and had some fun because by the weekend I was holed up in the
nest with the Flu that has now turned into a head cold.
Sure hope I heal in a hurry because I have big plans for Saturday night!
I'm going stateside with a bunch of ladies to celebrate my Cousin's 41st birthday
and I know it will be a terrific time.
Also there will be another comical Cousin joining us and I look forward to any time
I get to spend with her.
We are going to a dance club and though I'm not very good on my feet I'm
anxious to get out again and move about wildly in the midst of this Winter.
I tend to hibernate this time of year and it looks like dancing is something I
will be doing twice in a ten day span.....that's fantastic for me!
A bit of a lard load I am and always in need of more exercise 
Two of the ladies are ones that I had lunch with back in December and whenever
I'm around these fine females I laugh largely and end up sore in the stomach when
I return home, I so can't wait!

Well folks, I must get at the day I've been gifted with.
I hope this one finds you well and in a wonderful way, thanks for reading
what's on my mind.

Happy 62nd Mom, I love you!

Halfway Through....

Well we are you know, halfway through February that is and I must say
it's been a marvelous Winter so far. Not much snow to speak of and until recently
we've enjoyed warmer temps around here.
Valentines Day was wonderful here, the best in the last six years for sure!
My Hubby Bub was extra nice this year and bought me a beautiful double glassed
heart candle and a very sweet card that made my eyes leak.
Never has he been big in wordly ways but he sure did dandily this time.

As usual, leaving the nest took much effort on my part this morning but I'm happy
to say that I made it out and greeted our Son's with a smile on my face.
May not be much to those of you reading but it's an accomplishment for me.
I have much to look forward to today.
First I will be going for an ultra sound that will show my Doctor how big
and bad my hernia is.
I know what your thinking, how can anyone look forward to an ultra sound?
After all the confusion and mix ups prior to my last surgery, I'll glady go for any
testing that will show them what they need to know.
My youngest Son will be home for lunch and I enjoy that everyday, gone are
the days of my oldest in high school being able to have lunch at
home, man do I miss that.
I know all of you parents out there feel the same way about their
growing (grown) children.
Frequently do I say this but boy am I'm feeling it today.....
"time flies and gains speed with each passing year"
Later tonight I will be going to see a Beatles tribute band with my gracious Cousin.
She called a few weeks ago to invite me because her Husband didn't dsire to go
and he suggested taking me because of my life long love for Paul McCartney and
the Liverpool Lad's.
I've been anxiously awaiting this day, can't wait to get my Hard Days Night on!

Life just wouldn't be the same if we didn't also have heart hurts along the way and
today the one that has a hold on me is the 8th anniversary of my Uncles passing.
I would like to share one of my favorite memories of him with you because it
brings a smile to my face and a hug to my heart.
He was a large church going man and easily one of the most sociable
males I have ever met.
Whenever I made it to mass there was my smiling Uncle sitting in his usual
spot at the very back of the church with my Father in the pew with him.
I would go and join them and  find myself not listening to the priest but
instead to my Uncle.
You see he enjoyed conversation and I think mass was when he most liked
to talk about life.
If anyone else did this I would most certainly take offense to it but because
I was raised seeing that from him every time I went to church it became not only
acceptable but welcomed.
My words laid here just can't truly do justice to how much I miss him at times.
I do take comfort in the children he left behind because they can make me laugh
and smile just as he use to.
Oh I gotta share one more before I go to take on this day.
One of his Daughters is a very close friend of mine and I often recall how he would
call for her when picking her up for work.
Around the corner his big old car would come and he would stop right in front
of her door.
Then he'd start laying on the horn and yelling her name, I lived right next to her
and always laughed out loud when I'd hear his horn.
Well it's that time again, gotta get to the day at hand.
Thanks for reading what's on my mind and I do hope this day is a happy one for you!
P.S I'm including a pic of my beloved Uncle and I from a Christmas in the 70's along
with a song that he sang so well.

All At Once.....

It's peaceful here at the moment, like heaven on a Sunday.
My beloved pack-of-penises are out enjoying the snow with
a few other family members. Why am I not there?, you may be asking.
Well one reason is that I have much work to do around here.
Later today my Cousin and his family are coming for dinner.
They are even supplying the ham, always nice to have
people over for dinner but when they bring the main course
it's not only thoughtful, it makes for a more enjoyable meal when
company contributes to it.

I didn't sleep well last night for reasons that aren't appropriate to
type about here. Once I agreed to give up on any further search for
slumber,  I left the nest to start the day.
It wasn't a pleasant awakening as the boys were bickering and Hubby Bub
was turtle like in keeping to his word of feeding them breakfast.
You see today was my only day to "sleep in" and I was assured last night that I
would be doing just that. It didn't happen and I was grumpy because of it.
Did I stay in the sour start of the day?, I am happy to state that I did not and
I'm now in a well way looking forward to the hours ahead.
Why was it so easy today and so hard other days?, I like to believe it's because
of things I have been trying so hard to pay attention to.
Signs are more of what I like to think they are.
Some folks may think it sounds silly but it's been working well for me so I'm
going to stick with it.

Last night right before I went to sleep I saw a ticker run across the bottom of our
T.V screen stating that a very well known songstress was dead at the age of 48.
I was a fan of her music in my teen years and I was indeed sad to read
that she had passed.
My mind was taken back to a time when I thought she had the world at her feet.
It seemed she had everything and was loved by so many.
What do any of us know about the joys and jabs in any persons journey?
Nothing, we can only imagine what it's like to ride on their road.
Though I do my fair share of spitting sours and whining for wants, I can honestly say
that I am happy and grateful to be where I'm at in this day.
I've been given the gift of another day with those I love and that is really what I
enjoy more than anything.

Well I must be moving because my work here ain't gonna do itself.
I'll leave these lines with one of my favorites from the singer I spoke of.
Yup it takes me back to 14 all over again, glad I don't have to do that again
(wiping sweat from my brow).
I hope this day holds happiness and well health for you, thanks for reading
what's on my mind.

Say Cheese!.....

Since I've started this day I have been listening to some 80's cheese songs.
You know the ones, filled with sap and sweetness, it must be because the
upcoming heart day.
I never liked Valentines day when I was little but since my teen years it's
been better, probably because my Father use to spoil my Sis and I so on
that day. He would buy us little stuffed love toys holding hearts of chocolate
or those light up plastic roses, I still have one that he gave me.
Guess I'm in a mushy gushy mood today.

So far February has been fine and I was able to ride my bike the other day.
In my 41 years playing on this planet I can't recall ever being able to bicycle
about in February.
Hubby Bub and I usually don't do anything special for happy heart day but I
always try and make him a nice meal.
Our oldest Son has been asking for lasagna lately so I think that will be
the winner for this years feast.
I'm a pretty sap filled emotional lady so I really don't need a particular day to
be filled with feelings of love for those around me but it's nice to have one so
I can go overboard with it.
There are so many things this month that I celebrate, my Mother and
Step-Fathers birthdays, my Aunt and Uncles anniversary and two cousins
gain a year in age also.
Yup February is usually a fine month for me and so far this year with the lack of
snow it's been even better....why do I feel like I may have just cursed us?....hehe

My coffee mug is full, the house is warm and my loved ones are well, pretty good
I'd say for any given day.
With that, I must make this entry short today, busy day ahead.
I'll leave you with a  song that I've always liked and it had me laughing
when I listened to it earlier, talk about cheese filled!
May this day be dandy for you and I hope well health is yours.
As always, thank you for reading what's on my mind.

Goodbye To You.....

No not you, just my peevley poor attitude at the moment.
This could be my very first frustration fueled post here.
Not even sure how I want to word what's on my mind
but I will try.

This week has went well over all and I'm trying terribly hard
not to wash away all it's wonderfulness with the woe I'm feeling now.
I've been let down by a couple of people close to me in the past few days
and I'm obviously much more bothered by it than I originally thought.
A few days ago I was assured that I could count on what was being
told to me and now I see that isn't so and it has me steamed!
Good thing my hands are busy typing because I could be doing something
less constructive and more damaging.....breathe in, breathe out Ger.

Okay time to think and type about something on the sunnier side.
This morning I was reading around like I do most days when I came
across some super news from one of my Hubby Bub's family members.
You see she has been battling Cancer for several years and has tried
everything available to extend her time here.
Apparently the treatment she is taking now has shrunk the tumors and
is working well, that was truly terrific to see and I'm gonna focus on
the goodness in that instead of allowing myself to be anchored in anger.
This woman is always in my prayers and it feels so good knowing that
something is finally working for her.

I plan on riding my bike to where I have to be today and the sun is
shining, it's below freezing now but from what I've read it could get
near 50F, finely for February wouldn't you say?
I'm feeling better already!
This blogging thing has done me well and I feel more confident now
about turning this day around.
So with that let me just say Goodbye to disappointment, Cancer, the
cruelty we show each other on occasion, anger, resentment
and the conflict that is caused by letting it control us.
Yup the song I've picked for today is utterly perfect for referring to all those things.
Thanks for reading what's on my mind and for the relief I feel now from it.
May you be healthy in this day and I hope happiness is held in your heart for
others to experience by your actions.

Wanderlust.....

Well it's Wednesday and I'm happy to be typing an entry here today.
I've wanted to for the last few days but didn't for a couple of reasons.
My mood was to terrible to allow it earlier in the week and I've been busy
around here making perogies.
Since you last read here things have went well enough but I've also had
some heated moments over silly stuff.
Sometimes I get so steamed by the smallest things, I get all worked up
and overreact when what's needed most is collective calmness.

I do want to make mention of something marvelous that happened.
Recently I went to lunch with my Sister and our Cousins and during that
get together we spoke of our Fathers and how they always remained
close friends. They played on a baseball team together, fished,
went to movies and dinner, took vacations with us kids
(a rainy Summer day always brings The Pinery to mind)
and they even lived together for a Summer from what I understand.
Well back when I was a teen my Father gave me his baseball jacket
from when he played ball with him and while we were at lunch my Sister
suggested that I give our Uncle my Dad's jacket.
I was quite surprised and in no way wanted to part with it so I politely
declined and said that I wanted to keep it.
Well damned be me if I didn't keep thinking about it and how for the past
twenty five years or so it's done nothing but collect dust, I'll never be able
to wear it again due to my lardly loaded self so why keep something you
can't enjoy?
I decided that since our Uncle has so many memories of Daddy and their
baseball years then he should be the one to have the jacket.
Did I mention that my Uncle lost his baseball jacket in a fire years ago?
Knowing that made my decision even easier.

I also want to type about something else and yes it pertains to
yet another Cousin of mine.
You're probably thinking that I have no one in my life outside of family
from the way I talk but that's not true, I've just had more encounters with them
lately and I enjoy sharing my happiness when it comes from others.
Anyway, as I was typing....my Cousin has had a real hard time lately and
seems stuck in the sadness surrounding her Dad's death.
I've been very concerned over her and how she can get back to a better
place in her life, of course I can't put her there but I've wanted to at least
let her know that she is loved and cared for.
Last night she and her family came over for a perogy dinner and it was the
first time since October that I've seen her smile and heard her laughter, what
a pleasure it was and I found comfort in both.
We spoke briefly about the Summer and how some of us Cousins are trying
to rent a couple of cottages so we can take a much needed family vacation.
We haven't had one since the Summer of 98.
If all goes well there could be 20 or so of us going away together this year!
Now that would truly be terrific! :)

This day has started out dandily and I was able to have a nice chat with
my Sister-In-Law, she lives far from us and it's always good to hear from her.
Our crews of kids are growing up so fast and it's sad that we don't
live closer to each other.
I always feel so bad knowing that we see my family daily and yet Hubby Bub's
bunch doesn't get the same time with us but distance doesn't make it possible
for either party.

I'll leave these lines with a song, a nice little number from one of my favorites.
Thanks for reading what's on my mind and may the remainder of this day
be dandy for you!